"this is what we all die to live for"

vacation.holidays.

these are the two words that everyone on listening to it goes "aahh..rest, peace ...etc" yes, these are the two words that makes everone long for them, to wait and wait until they can have a nice holiday and laze their butt off.

but in my life it is everting exactly the opposite.

yes, i'm practically like the only teenager who has to sit at home for the next fortnight and listen to my parents quarrel. EVERYDAY. and do maths. 4 hours, everyday. not only is that it but i practically dont have a life anymore, and i've been known as "antisocial". i'm not antisocial...i'm just a little...shy.to put it in a way.

the next 15 days (my hols) will be like living a nightmare..everyday over and over and over again.

i hope i survve these days, and make it through.wish me luck!

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oh yeah, its the story of a girl,

the one who lives in her own world,

dressing up and make up,

on her lies and on her life,

she lies curled up in fear,

cant you see she's crying silent tears?

 

waiting for wrongs to be right,

in her own shadow she hides.

faking it was her regular ritual,

and everyday was the same story,

the one she writes with her own mind, in this old game of life.

 

she's the one you fail to notice,

but you can't help wonder who she is,

she's the one who will keep you guessing,

for that girl is someone like me.

 

looking down to the pages,

the ones that have her story,

read between and somewhere you'll notice,

there she lies , that girl thats me.

i'm the journal of secrets , the used up book of fantasy,

i'm the girl thats in these lines, yes, i'm her, and thats me.